The author reflects on grief and love after losing Roland, comparing grief to waves washing over land. They describe their emotional journey, transitioning from holding a metaphorical sphere of love to storing it in a bucket while grappling with guilt and anxiety. The focus shifts to creating a personal space and embracing individuality.
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From Grief to Growth: Reclaiming Life After a Loved One’s Passing
It is strange. I feel that my life can be split into three distinct times. Before Roland, with Roland and after Roland. If you are new here, I ought to say that Roland was my husband. He passed away suddenly on Boxing Day 2023. Before Roland I was a person driven by something intangible. Something… Continue reading From Grief to Growth: Reclaiming Life After a Loved One’s Passing
Embracing Change: Leaving My City Home for the Countryside
I am leaving my house. Yes, the house me and R designed and adapted to be our forever home. With him gone I do find a huge comfort in the memories I have. The wall he built and the way the biofolds angle so that they will get more sun. Everything is just as we… Continue reading Embracing Change: Leaving My City Home for the Countryside
Fate…
Do you believe in fate/destiny? Do I believe in fate? I'm not sure except that R and I bumped into each other so many times... Although maybe it was more destiny. Fate means you have no control but destiny is just a prearranged date or meeting that has to happen. Potentially, I was not fated… Continue reading Fate…
The do-over
I like getting a do-over, a second bite of the apple, another go, and it means you can look at what went wrong last time. But sometimes, sometimes, there are things that are so ingrained that you do them again. I hoover every other day or so, but every time I mean to move that… Continue reading The do-over
Love and hate – a short story
Love and Hate is a #shortstory with perhaps a bit of #truth behind it. #bullying #life #amwriting
Cardiff – Commissions – Valentine’s
The weekend just gone I found myself in Cardiff alone while my other half was training... So I decided to hit the museum - again. I went to see the Victorian Gallery but it was closed. I wondered for a moment what to do but then I realised the Natural History section was open so… Continue reading Cardiff – Commissions – Valentine’s
The Drawing Board
It's tricky being in two places at once. Leaves my head a little disjointed and unable to settle. This means that I don't get the work done I ought to. I slow and become lethargic... How do I change? I have to be comfortable. Luckily, I have the best partner and he is happy to… Continue reading The Drawing Board
Intensity
Intensity I have problems with showing my emotions in the first place but you know that moment in 'Love Actually' where Keira Knightly realises that the best friend of her new husband is actually in love with her? Well I have had one of those. I don't love easily, in fact I have only been… Continue reading Intensity
Kate Murray - Cleaver 