Intensity

Intensity

I have problems with showing my emotions in the first place but you know that moment in ‘Love Actually’ where Keira Knightly realises that the best friend of her new husband is actually in love with her?

Well I have had one of those. I don’t love easily, in fact I have only been in love once and he never knew. It wasn’t until I was sitting in my car with all my belongings in the back that I realised I was leaving the love of my life. He had been the long-term boyfriend of a housemate but they had split in the last few weeks. I fell in love slowly and it wasn’t until I had left that I even realised it had happened.

It took me a year to get over him, and I have a feeling that I may not have even got a second thought. But that is love – sometimes it hurts. I just was n’t expecting it. So to my friend who I once loved and lost I hope that your life was all it ought to have been because I know you were in a bad place at the time. A part of me will always be in that damp terrace house with the hole in the roof and mould in the kitchen. That part of me wonders what would have happened if I had only had the courage and the foresight.