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Is this a second year of a nanowrimo fail?

It may seem premature, I mean we are only on the 13th of November, but I have to admit that my word count is bad… Worse than bad. I am at 5000 words. Okay I have excuses, but all I feel is disappointment.

It does seem like the fates have conspired against me. I had a few illness issues and it has been tough functioning normally, let alone writing. My word count per day has gone from bad to worse.

Am I going to give up?

Hell, no.

But my novel may not hit the nanowrimo milestones. It will get there; maybe by mid December, but I still feel like a failure.

It’s really strange because I can get a number of rejection letters and I just shrug them off. But with this I’m feeling the failure like an ache. It has got to me. But as I’m feeling better I think that it is going to get written faster.

I just wish I could relax about it. Maybe I ought to try a bit of meditation….

12 thoughts on “Is this a second year of a nanowrimo fail?

  1. I was reluctant to ‘like’ this post, but it’s meant as a bit of support. The year that Jon wrote much of BATDIG he hardly did any in the first 10 days because he had so much editing work, but he was motivated to keep going and did manage 50,000 words by the end of the month, so you never know! He’s working away from home at the moment so didn’t even start, which is a shame, but sometimes it just doesn’t work out.

    1. Thank you for the support. I’m going to try, but I am bothered by my reaction. I thought it would be no bother, but I feel bad for not hitting my word count. Silly really as it is my own deadline. I don’t have to do it. But the writing I have done seems good.

      Hope Jon is okay – say hello for me. How are you?

      1. We are good – although the only seeing each other at weekends has taken a bit of getting used to again.
        As for NaNoWriMo… sometimes it’s the targets we set ourselves that are the toughest. I guess it’s because we feel we are letting ourselves down. Be kind to yourself – you’ve been having a bit of a tough time and the writing should not make things worse. Celebrate the good bits and forget numbers of words.

      1. Perhaps another year (or later), I will feel braver. On the other hand, aren’t they wanting you to be writing a “novel” … and 1600+ words a day (if u write everyday), Phewww!!!

  2. Setting a target for one month in a year is the problem…it takes no account of what ‘real life’ may throw at you during that month! It also piles on the added pressure, as you’ve discovered, if you miss a day or one day doesn’t go well. Go back to basics, lovely writing lady…you have a wonderful story inside you to tell…let it write itself when you are well and happy:-)

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