What activities do you lose yourself in?
I could just write the one word – art – but I think it needs some explanation.
My autism is not great, although I guess that, because it is mine, I don’t notice how bad I am… Maybe if I ask R.
“How big is the effect of my autism on our lives? Low, moderate or high” I ask.
“Err… Low… Moderate,” R says, watching me with his cogs visibly whirring.
There we are then – it effects pretty much every aspect to a moderate degree. Not the most scientific of tests but I trust R’s judgement.
“What has that got to do with art”?
Well, it is one of the few ways that I get to put spoons back. I was trying to describe how I feel when I draw and it is difficult. I have always drawn and my head goes to a place that I can’t reach any other way. It is a calming thing, that makes me feel at peace. My head goes quiet and I simply know what to do, I don’t have to think about it or plan my moves. I lose myself and yet, at the same time, I am completely myself.
Kate Murray - Cleaver 
You’re the first person I’ve run into that mentions getting spoons back. Nearly everyone I’ve talked to who uses spoon theory postulates that when a spoon is gone, it’s gone and there’s no getting them back. Which is why I’ve never used the spoon theory. But it works for a lot of people. ^_^
I really like your rabbit study. I can’t draw for anything.
Thanks and you can put spoons back by doing something you love or calms you. You only lose them when you do stuff that is a drain. Or at least that is how it works with me.
Good 👍