Wanted peaceful quiet to confidently create.
These are all things missing at the moment.
Peace
I appear to be in a constant level of stress. I am awaiting a specialist appointment to see if they can help with my vision and headaches. I am also over-run with deadlines for the soft toy business.
What I need to do is relax. Easier said than done. One thing has eased off is the dissertation, as someone pointed out that I have six months to complete it.
Quiet
Actually this I have. The only noise at the moment is the radio and the chickens. 🙂
Confidence
This is a major problem. At the moment I am in a slump. I think it’s mainly pain medication but all I want to do is cry and sleep. So I’m ignoring it as much as I can and working anyway. I also have the worst self-image at the moment. I have a weight problem, but if I were as fat as I picture myself I would need a crane to get out of bed. And I’m nowhere near that. At the moment I feel lacking.
Even my parents have noticed. Asking where their smiling Kate has gone. My answer – I don’t know but I hope she is back soon.
Creating
This is not really a problem but my writing is taking an effort. Normally I just sit and tap away but it is becoming harder. Maybe it’s because I’m trying to turn it into a business rather than a hobby. Or maybe it is just a medication thing. I am going to carry on though and hopefully it won’t show in my writing.
All in all I have plans, but they are becoming difficult to do. Still I refuse to give up. My future is quietly confident that I will create. 🙂
Have faith in yourself and problems will disappear.
I find that medications can slip up and befuddle my mind sometimes.
It is annoying because it heightens the dyslexia to the point where I am second guessing myself all the time.
I know that makes it hard. My husband has dyslexia and struggles with it without being on medications.
You are a lovely, beautiful, creative person and never let anyone (least of all yourself) tell you anything different! Try a bit of crochet to boost those alpha waves in the brain!
Thank you. I will. And I have decided to ignore all but my positive thoughts. 🙂